reflection is the truth...
Before you pass judgements, look into the mirror
When you were betrayed and 'sold', was it because you were too innocent, you were too trusting or you have relied heavily on the other party to achieve your goal
You can blame the whole world except yourself but the ultimate bearer of burden and consequences is you; yourself
It is disadvantageous to have too many friends as most are with you for a purpose aka "use". If you are not useful, why do they bother to call and count on you? The value of friendship starts with "usefulness", just as your bosses/employers pay you for your use/contributions
A big network is important and useful for information flow and tapping, not for gossips, conspiracy and backstabbing
A network is a collection of people with fairly like-minded interests, good, bad & scheming (characters) aside
A few friends, a few bosom friend, a few trustworthy friends ~ nobody can say "I have many of these..." reliable yet available
When you decided to close yourself to everyone or most, you will be surprised "how empty and quiet" your life is... no gossips, requests for help, being 'used', hearing loads of noises & peace returns
But, an idle mind is a devil's workshop
Slowly, but surely, you will (need to) fill in the void
If you are young again, do you or will you choose the same route? If yes, then you need not clear the clutters and should continue as usual before the Devil occupies
Whatever fits, do ~ YOLO
If Providence is pre-destined, then why do you need to struggle? No, those who struggle are swimming [fighting] against the flow instead of doing your best & leaving the rest ... not doing anything is the other negative extreme
Nature rewards the brave and patience ~ Brave to try and not give up and patience to wait for results
Like all things, some days are harder and nothing seems to go right; I'd drop everything and close for the day
Taking long walks is also a form of meditation ~ try walking aimlessly but safely. Let your feet and mind leads you. Let your mind wonders
As much as you walk forward, you will need to return to your start-point
Henceforth, you will discover that where you were (before the start) weren't exactly that bad ... everything goes in circle and we return to (re-)start again
We came alone and shalt return alone too
Every other persons' opinions and voices do not affect us ... 没有如果只有结果与后果
Swim the deepest ocean, climb the highest mountain, jump the vertical cliff; do enough to have stories to tell when you are old and no longer able to attempt the 'impossible'
GOD has a plan for you & HE allows you maximum spaces to demonstrate & experiment but be prepared for the consequences, for the better or worse 种因得果
Life is like water
No fix shape nor size
Water cuts through rocks and steel
Drips & drops of water fill the ocean
Water evolve & travel in cycles ~ liquid, vapor, solid
Human is unstoppable except by oneself
I am & I will ... be water